My Freedom

I love the Mountains,
Its where I'm free.

Thats where my heart is,
Thats where you'll find me.

Fresh air,
Open air.

I feel close to my God,
I feel worth it.

Take me back,
To the Mountains.

If You Do This...We Can't Be Friends.

Thanksgiving is its own holiday. It is actually a pretty damn big holiday too! So WHY ON EARTH are there any people in this country that skip it. I do not understand. Christmas is obviously the best holiday and everyone looks forward to it after Halloween is over, but what about Thanksgiving? Can't you wait to put up Christmas decorations until its over?? Its only a few more weeks! And then there is less time to get annoyed of Christmas songs so obviously you'll enjoy it more! I honestly can't stand it when people just skip right over Thanksgiving, when I have kids, they are going to be just as crazy as their mama and they will yell at people who hum Christmas songs before Thanksgiving, and especially people who turn their Christmas lights on, put up their trees, and put decorations all around their house. BEFORE Thanksgiving has even happened. So when I get married... my husband better agree with me.

Motivation

I'm in a funk. Thats what my dad called it. We had a good chat the other day about being in a funk. It doesn't mean you can stop. I'm having a hard time, but I'm still me and I'm still strong. That should be motivation enough to keep going. I am still me. I have gone through some nasty shit lately but its for my own good. I know its making me a better person. Life is hard but DUH. Ya its hard but you keep going anyway. Thats just the way it is. I've found some new motivation. We will see how long this one lasts. 

BY THE WAY. Total side note. Boys with earrings? Kinda gross. Just saying.

Reunited

So uh my best bud CJ left for a week to California. And so did Amy. And so did Whitney. I didn't even know what to do with myself. So I went to Park City and Lagoon with my family. But guess what! Me, CJ and Whitney have been reunited.

CUTE KIDS:) 

This is my fam bam at Lagoon

AND this is me and Amy the day she left for California:(

Ridin Solo

I have come to several realizations this past weekend. Number one, I am worth it and if he can't see that, then he isn't. I don't even know the other ones, this is just the most important one. I am really proud of myself at the moment because this past weekend James did exactly what he has been doing on and off for the past few weeks which is mess with my emotions. He calls me when he wants to be with me, but when I call him and want to hangout, or I need him, he isn't around and he was "busy". So this weekend was the LAST FUCKING STRAW. I'm done. I have never been strong enough for that before, but I am this time. I know that he is not worth it because I finally remember that I am worth the time and the effort and if he isn't going to put that time and effort in, SEE YA, I'm over it. Well, I mean I'm not over it exactly...but I know its the right thing to do to not talk to him anymore. The hard part is, I know he really does need me around, but he hasn't really realized how much yet and when that comes, I hope he realizes he just missed out big time. I know I am gonna be ok, even without the boy I thought was perfect, because as long as I have a relationship with my Heavenly Father (which I'm working really hard on) I'm gonna be ok :) Missionary letters definitely help too;)

By the way, I'm not really engaged. That was all made up. Someone believed it cuz me and James told someone that and they thought we were serious...so I bought a $5 ring so it seemed real. NOT ENGAGED.

What Every Party Girl Needs

DRY SHAMPOO. Best thing ever. Amy just leaves a can in her car so that way, when we are on our way to 80s, or wherever, we can always shampoo our hair real quick if it looks dirty! This is an example from this thursday night...

perfect.

This thursday was also Miss Jentri White's first time at 80s!! Soooo glad she came with us, we had a blast. 

loooove these girls:)

Why Can't You Read My Mind?

Boys think its a problem, but really its just a fact of life. Girls want boys to read their mind. You know what, it isn't that hard. Girls are always the same. The code is easy to figure out. "I'm not mad" means "You better make up for it right this second." "i'm cold" means "please hold me". "I miss you" means "come see me now". "i had really hard day" means "make it better". "don't call me later." means "call me before I freak out." "hope you have fun" means "hope your night sucks without me" and there are so many more, but they are always the same. So just learn them, and you'll be alright:)